Early Morning thoughts

My friend who I sat with at the ER center, is not doing well. He’s become angry and disgruntled at the time it’s taking to find out what’s wrong – even though we both have our ideas. He’s begun to take it out on those around. I wish that I could wave a wand and take it all away.

The anger shows in
the tone.
the anger shows in
behavior.

The smile might
still be on
the
face, but I’m
listening to
what isn’t said.
What’s there
but
not revealed.

I could offer
the
platitudes of
life ~
the appropriate
sounds we
make
when faced with
that which
is
uncomfortable.

But I can’t do
that for,
you
are
my friend.
I care too
much to play
a game
of caring.

I want to let
you
know
I care — really care.

And I shall show it
by just being there.
Just sitting and being.

We can talk –
if you want.
We can be silent –
if you want.

But what must
be known,
said,
understood –

I am here.
I care.
I will continue
to be here –
even when
you
try to
shut me out.

Frantic Monday Morning


And then the alarm –
I knew something was going off
and it hurt.
The dream had been so special,
so sweet,
so-

but now I don’t remember
what it was.

Now, I have to remember –
keys,
coffee,
pants,
soxs
papers –
and what I had said
yesterday
that I was going to
accomplish
this day.
This day, the first day
of the week.
Where is this week heading?
Forget that!
Where is this day heading?
What about this moment?
I long to climb back
onto the lap of the
quiet
solitude
of yesterday.
The hope
of yesterday.
All this longing,
needing solitude
wanting peace.
And now I
remember ~
I’m almost
out of gas in
the car.